When God Is The Teacher ...
The last five months have been one blow below the belt after another. I feel that when God has something to tell me, He leaves no stone unturned - He shreds every part of who He created me to be. The last five months have been part by part destruction, a break-down component by component. When creating a character, I break down a character into six parts - the physical, the emotional, the intellectual, the relational, the sexual, and the spiritual. I pondered through how every part of my character was in the process of being affected - my physical well-being (my health is slipping, weight is returning), my emotional well-being (I'm increasingly more unhappy, more quick to anger, more agitated with living with dad), my intellectual well-being (I hunger for thinking, for learning, for growing and can seem to find no one to enter into this dialogue with me, no one - save one), my relational well-being (if mom were alive right now, she would be glad, for she would have achieved wh...