on the Pilgrimage

Here we are again ... mid/late June. And my world is full of the same things ... (1) end of the classes (2) end of the courses - which mean exams (3) marking and grading like there is no tomorrow (4) report cards and number crunching (5) finishing classes ... and what would all this be without ... (6) looming unemployment AGAIN?!?!?!???!!!! And the insanity is such that I don't have the time or energy to seek more work. All I want to do is do what I need to do and go to bed. Grades are due at 9am tomorrow. I will make it but just. And that is depending on the little pile of Drama I I'm finishing up before bed. Honestly, there is so much I wanted to do, so much I wanted to achieve and complete with them, and I look over what they are graded on, and it is pathetic. How much better I could have done had I had time to pull things together or plan or prepare like I now know I need to. Things to contemplate and consider: (1) PLANNING and follow through (short range/long range) ...

I look around me and most people seem to ask simple questions and live simple lives. Yes, they have stress and are caught up in the 'soap opera'-ness of all that is their life. But, basically, it seems simple to me. And, at this point, that is not a bad thing. I long for a life like that. But no. I get 'blessed' with a life that appears to be simple. I get 'blessed' with the 'gift' of thinking. How many times have I been told, "You think too much!" ... and often I see that as a compliment. Right now, with the way my head is reeling and hurting, I wish I could turn it off. From another forum that is part of my current headache: I'm currently reading a book that is greatly affecting me and giving me a number of 'ah-ah' moments and a lot to ponder and contemplate. I am not that far into it, but would like to put forth some of the questions that the book poses ... partially to share, but also because I wonder how people here would re...

I feel like the last month has been a series of living from one deadline to the next, with no thought or time to plan in advance. I feel like the meltdown that is imminent will not ever occur - not because I have been successful in dealing with it, but because there has been no time to take care of what needs to be taken care of for it to heal properly. To say that I am stressed is a severe understatement ... when I hear others say that they are 'stressed' and I ask them what that looks like in their life, I laugh. Oh, to live their life of stress!! That would be my bliss right now!!! I have to snapshot a theme from the last week to this. Last week, I needed some time to prep something for Summerstock on Friday, so I decided to show a movie for the sake of showing a movie. No other reason. (I have NEVER done that in a class ~ there is always a reason to watch a movie in my class.) I did not have anything that was a good 'filler', so I ended up showing the movie ...